INTELLECTUAL MENOPAUSE, A NEW PHASE IN EMERGENCE?

I am Rubi. I am a woman of my mid-fifties. I love my husband very much because of his sense of integrity, his intellectual acumen and prodigy, for which he is now a C.E.O. of an M.N.C. from almost nothing, he reached to his pinnacle of success out of his intellectual frequency, his sense of empathy, as well his sincere attachment to his organization and its growth, which is his utmost focus. He sincerely devoted himself for the well-being of his organization and dedicate to his fullest. He loves his organization which ensures all sorts of convenience for him and his family in return. The present world is a place where give and take is only equation persists. It is truly giving the supplement of the adage, ‘as you sow, so you reap.’

My husband enjoys his journey of life to its fullest. He is equally caring for me as well our son and daughter, who are his epicenter of life. I cannot rule out that he equally loves and spend quality time with me as well the entire family. Now, my son and daughter both have completed their studies and exploring the world according to their choice where we never try to intrude. They are equally exceling their own avenues and we are very composed and comforted with our lives.

Today morning, when I got up, after completing my usual work, I sat on the table calling others to attend for tea and breakfast. As today is holiday my rest family members will wake up little late than the other working days. All responded me that they are going to attend on the table with haste.

Meanwhile I was surfing the newspaper and in the front page, the shocking news almost taken away my nerves. In the front page, the news of a CE.O., who molested his private secretary and in a press conference the victim has stated her ordeal and most disheartening thing is that the concern C.E.O. is no other than my husband!

My life all of a sudden literally engulfed with utter despondence. I could not believe, it is my husband who could be the perpetrator of such nefarious crime!

I truly cannot properly translate exactly what is going on within me. I am afraid of my children how they will react when they take notice of such heinous crime being performed by their own father in the newspaper? How the father of them equally try to defend himself while confronting with such embarrassing situation? He will surely accuse the victim as a malicious one who intends to get some unsolicited favor and ignoring her might have result him to land into such infamy. Besides, he will surely try to persuade them that the corporate world is exactly like walking on a rope and moment you lose the balance you will be surely fall into the bottom of hard rock reality, means your career will be ruined, moment you fail to envisage the sinister haunting at you in every moment. Blaming to the corporate world nowadays becomes a fancy for the honchos who are entangled in such infamous acts. But, to be honest there cannot be smoke without fire and precisely that smoke which could be derived from fire only.

However, after they all attend to the breakfast table and the impact of the news clouded them with a tremor of shock. My husband, little later, break the silence by resorting to the malice of the corporate world and he accused the victim as brazen lady and an agent of his rival company and tried to persuade us by claiming that he is innocent.

But, I cannot spend thereafter a single moment without despising my husband. On the other hand, I am equally thinking that is it only women who experience menopause, hot flushes and other features, making them utterly unpalatable with the life they are experiencing with?

I guess, after reaching to the pinnacle of intellectual fertility, it is inevitable for all to experience cerebral menopause phase and perhaps, on that period they are incapable to judge their mental state where they do not have at all control of their traits and the external world with all its pomp and vices act as a sinister to them, influencing and affecting their faculty, triggering them to act in such a fashion which usually are not their trait. They are obviously become vulnerable to the external world in and around them, precisely the vices, as garnering enormous wealth, whether for organization or for individual, a parameter they consider their epitome of success, leads to a land of utter jeopardy they eventually confront with. They tend to think that out of opulence they can do anything out of their caprice. Precisely, in case of successful people, this attitude is more evident. Their arrogance and ego, devoid of values, reasons and sensibility only yield ignominy to them.

This ‘intellectual menopause phase’ cause immense damage to their stature, fame and name, all of a sudden toppling them from the helm of their cult figure they are enjoying.

It is my personal experience regarding my husband, which I can share that, he was a brilliant student throughout his student life. After completing his education he got a plush job and dedicates himself to his fullest, which virtually enable him to reach the apex of his career and as a C.E.O also he garnered huge fame. He hardly got any opportunity to ponder about anything apart from his career. After reaching to the pinnacle of his success, he has nothing left to achieve literally. The mischievous trait hidden on him, which he might have suppressed for a considerable time, got the opportunity to reveal its pernicious trait and subsequently it overbear on him at its slightest chance and foiled his stature unceremoniously, which he have asserted for a long time.

I guess, this is the fall out of the ‘intellectual menopause phase’ and like female psychology, if could be equally addressed with due care and attention, we could avert such shameful incident and save the male fraternity and their family too from such disdainful state of mind.

The pain of being humiliated with such disgraceful act of my husband, I am at a loss. The affliction of a woman of such trait of notoriety of a man, as well the helpless condition of a woman, who is mere a victim of a certain situation, both are like compressed pressure on me, and inducing me to lose my balance too. But, the tragedy is that, the people will not buy my vision of ‘intellectual menopause’, nor they could understand my pangs being derived from such untoward incident, which is forcing me towards a verge of extinction. I am in dilemma, that my desire to conclude my life at this juncture will be treated as suicide or homicide? A cloud of despondence only engulfing me, blurring my vision absolutely!